almost there

AJK BLOK 4 ; Min, Farhana, Fyza, Anis & Lieya.. antara AJK tmasuk skali juri khas...heheh

sedar2 dah nak habis sem 5..nex sem goin to be super senior pd semua students intake JUL 07..macam mimpi je dah hampir habis n dapat sampai ke peringkat ni..tharu, sedih, gembira, bahagia, suka, duka..semua hadir dalam satu..macam2 kenangan yang aku dapat bsama dengan rakan-rakan juga ex ku..ermmku try rcall apa yg tjadi..sem 1 ok la n rapat dgn sm1..tp rsult ku agk truk..ckp makan ja..n tpaksa repeat 1 paper..sem 2 ku single..da juga yg repeat..huhu..sem 3 my rsult naik n x da repeat lg smpi sem4..hrp sem ni x da repeat la..byk kngn yg manis n pahit n semua itu tpahat d hati..las saturday 17 october 09 da Malam Pemerindang Ati..the best nyte ever after..having fun watching peoples sings n dancing...wat d best nyte..i really njoy it bt still in stress dat time though I'm secreaming d whole xtvt bt I'm still stres..thanks for the Seri Gading Blok 4 AJK for this 2 semesters..I love it...korang memang best...

cinta antara kita

Duta:sejak dari duluku menyintaimu
kau tahu begitu
namun kau berpura
ku masih teringat kau peluk diriku
yg telah membuat ku menyintai mu
sudah berapa lama
diriku initak bertemu mu
mungkin ku harap jua
kau merindu ku
sebagaimanaku rinduimu
Duta:cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usiaku menyinta dirimu
ku hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintakuku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....
Baizura Kahar:setelah kau pergi jauh dari sisi
tiada ku cinta selain dirimu
ku ingin bersama dgnmu selamanya
walaupun sehingga ke akhir nyawa
mungkin kau tak mengerti
maksud ku dulu pada dirimu
kiniku kan menyinta dirimu itu sehingga ke akhir waktu
Baizura Kahar:cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usiaku menyintai dirimu
ku hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintaku
ku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....
Duta:sudah berapa lama
diriku ini
tak bertemu mu
Baizura Kahar:mungkin ku harap jua
kau merindu ku
sebagaimanaku rindumu
Duta:cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usiaku menyinta dirimu
Baizura Kahar:hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintakuku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....
Duta and Baizura Kahar:cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usiaku menyintai dirimu
ku hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintakuku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....

~dedicated just for u....~

good morning n have a nice n wonderful day more than ystrdy...

pg ni plan nk bgn lmbt ckit coz bdn aku msh pnt2 n skt2 n mata pun msh ngantok tp awl pg org dh ketuk pintu hati...eh...pintu dorm la nk print..duit punya pasal aku buka jugak...mlm td smpt msj dgn seorg kwn lm, sorg kwn br n my angel(kakak akulah..)dlm keadaan yg pnt tahap mlampau..alik2 tggu my angel eply msj alu ttido x sedar dunia...dh ku tsilent hp coz i tot she wont txt me anymore..mcm ku x knl prangainya ya..mun da pa2 ja br msj ku...hehe...nya msj around 1.06am..nang x tauk pa tjadi..nya msj pdh nya thidu bau yg wangi gilak2 time maok g toilet..tang leka ja mun hidu nya pdh..blik dr toilet nya pdh nya hidu bau yg nang busuk gilak2...ya nya tkt bha..ku sakat la bau wangi ya dtg dr bliknya coz nya br kuar dr blik n yg busuk dtg dr toilet bekas slipar yg nya bw..hahaha....hjg mggu pun kn buat keja..bosan lah...tp demi masa depan, chaiyo2...mlm td is d best day in d week...having fun n mmalukan diri sndr yg sdia malu tp NANG GEMPAK GILA LA...to bdk2 IS 110 trutama yg sem 5, u all r d best n sporting frens...we're having fun together, we 4get all our worries bout tests, asgnmts, conflicts btween each other...wat we do las nyte is eat, making fun, laugh, laugh, laugh and laugh....we even cant control ourselves...we behave like we still in primary or secaondary skul i guess....hahahahahah.... =D...

cuti dah dekat tapi not really in holiday mood..

I hope holiday is not coming around...why...?coz banyak lagi assignment tak siap and banyak lagi kena buat..dah tue lepas raya lak ada 2test and assignments yang kena subit..tadi lecturer bagi consultation regarding final project..lecturer tur ada sentuh tentang communication...apa yang lecturer cakap tadi macam betul je...yes i admit dalam grouping ni banyak benda nak handle..dalam 4orang 1group pun dah payah nak handle apa lagi kalau dalam 8 ke 9 orang group member...lagi banyak ragam dan kerenah yang nak dilayan..kadang-kadang rasa nak give up juga tapi bila fikir lagi buang masa nak give up sekarang nih since dah nak habis semester..tahan je la..entahlah...memang tension tahap yang terlampau lah..mana tahan hari-hari macam ni..dah tu si dia dekat seminggu tak contact..rindu juga lah tapi kena tahan bila bersama dengan dia ni.. kena ikut rentak dia..and seorang kawan aku ni memang suka sangat seksa aku..memang tak sah kalau tak seksa hidup aku..tadi aku ada terserempak dengan dia tapi aku buat tak tahu je..bukan apa..cuma aku rasa sakit hati dekat dia..

Saya tak kisah bila kamu bersama lelaki itu kerana kamu bisa menjadi milik dia.

Tapi apa yang melukakan hatiku bila dirimu menjauh dari aku dan menafikan hal yang sebenar.

Nyatakan hal sebenar dan bebaskan diriku dari terus tertanya-tanya.

Cukuplah dirimu menyeksa diriku..

kalau boleh aku tak nak cuti. salah satu sebab kalau cuti nanti aku pokai..then tak dapat jumpa si dia..dahlah seminggu dia tak contact langsung..lagilah lepas cuti karang busy nak final memang tak dapat jumpa pun...uhue...tapi yang best kalau cuti karang, ada ex schoolmate ku ajak jumpa..dorang ajak pergi jamming..aku on je..janji ku dapat lepak-lepak dengan dorang..transport pulak ada sorang laki ni bermurah hati nak angkut kitaorang..hehehe..bahagianya hidup...at least walaupun tak rapat dulu, kalau jumpa area uitm, dia akan tegur or paling tak pun dia akan senyum.. laki tue sekarang kalau tak silap part 3 Tourism...aku pun tak pasti sangat..hehe...sorry bro...k la...panjang sangat dah ni...kat budak2 yang beraya, selamat hari raya aidilfitri...baik2 k..tahun ni aku dapat duit raya dari best friend of mine..walaupun tak banyak, tapi amat bermakna...ampun maaf di pinta..halalkan semua makan minum, terkasar bahasa and tingkah laku..adios...

09 09 09

wat a great n wonderful date n somthing great happen today..one of my old fren bday ystrdy..km lm dh x cntct coz ada krisis yg wjd atas sebab kdegilan dan keegoan msg2..i guess..today she in a sad situation..dia khilangan one of her best friend.. might dun understand or know wat she feel right now but i feel great since her willing to tell me wat happen..byk lg yang aku nak share tapi bukan sekarang ye..mgkn next time...

this songs is for you

Cry On Your Pillow

I wanna be,

I wanna be

I wanna be more

I wanna be,

I wanna be

He says he loves you

Now you don’t wanna leave

You’re so confused you think you’re right where you wanna be

I’m always here for you; truth is its killing me

Cuz I know when you come back what it’s gonna be

I let you have a good cry

I’ve been taking this lying down

Now I’m inside out

I think you got the wrong guy

If I never said it before

Girl I’mma say it now

He’s tearing you apart

The heartbreak don’t stop

Come home and cry on your pillow

Right here to catch you when you fall

You know I’m the one you call

Come home and cry on your pillow

I got a shoulder you can lean

Take it all I’d give you me

Cuz I really wanna be much more than your pillow

More than a best friend (best friend)

I think it’s evident

That I wanna be more than your pillow…girl

When you’re lonely

When he leaves again

I’m the one standing by when you need a friend

When you’re hurting

When your hearts in two

I’m the one s’ always there to help you make it through

I let you have a good cry (a good cry)

I’ve been taking this lying down

Now I’m inside out

I think you got the wrong guy (wrong guy)

If I never said it before

Girl I’mma say it now

He’s tearing you apart

The heartbreak don’t stop (don’t stop)

Come home and cry on your pillow (home…and cry on your pillow)

Right here to catch you when you fall

You know I’m the one you call

Come home and cry on your pillow (come home and cry on your pillow)

I got a shoulder you can lean

Take it all I’d give you me (I’d give you me)

Cuz I really wanna be much more than your pillow (pillow…)

More than a best friend (best friend)

I think it’s evident (evident)

That I wanna be more than your pillow ‘girl’

I understand if you’re scared

Cuz baby I’m scared too

But if you take a look inside your heart then you know it’s true

There ain’t no way he’ll ever love you like I do

So tell me what’s the use on being with someone else (someone else)

Tell me why do you do this to yourself

You can do better than that

You’re so much better than that

Said I just wanna make you happy cuz this…

He’s tearing you apart

The heartbreak don’t stop (tearing you…apart)

Come home and cry on your pillow

Right here to catch you when you fall (catch you when you fall)

You know I’m the one you call

Come home and cry on your pillow (home and cry on your pillow!)

I got a shoulder you can lean (you can lean…ohh)

Take it all I’ll give you me

Cuz I really wanna be much more than your pillow (said I really wanna be much more)

More than a best friend (best friend)I think it’s evident

That I wanna be more than your pillow girl (that I wanna be that I wanna be)(WoooOoOoh)

I wanna be (I wanna)

I wanna be

I wanna be more

I wanna be,

I wanna be(WoooOoOh)

I wannaI wanna be (I wanna),

I wanna be

I wanna be more than your pillow girl.....

tis songs is special songs...

i really mean all the words in tis songs...

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?

Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto

Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni

Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou?

Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi

Afuredasu kotoba, wakatteta no ni (mou todokanai)

Hajimete deatta, sono hi kara

Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shitan da

Amari ni shizen ni tokende shimatta futari

Doko e iku no ni mo issho de

Kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de

Bokura wa futari otona ni natte kita

Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?

Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto

Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni (mou kanawanai)

Tokubetsu na imi wo motsu kyou wo

Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo

Kirei na sugata de kami sama ni chikatteru, kimi wo

Boku ja nai hito no tonari de

Shukufuku sareteru sugata wo

Boku wa dou yatte miokureba ii no darou?

Mou doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?

Ano koro mo, bokura no koto, mou moderenai (kangaeta) modorenai (kangaeta)

Doushite kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou?

Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto

Boku no yoko ni, iru hazu datta (sono mama nii)

Sore demo kimi ga boku no soba nara to itte mo

Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto

Tada negatteru

Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikutemo (setsunakutemo)

translation why did i end up fallimg in love with you

why?

did i end up falling for you?

no matter how much time has passed

i still thought

you were right here

but you've already chosen a different path

why?

couldn't I call out to you at all?

every day and night growing emotions

and words overflow

but i realized that

they'd never reach you again

since that day I first met you

i felt like I already knew you

You and I melded into each other so smoothly

it was natural for me

to be where you were

the two of us grew up together

but you've already chosen the different path

why?

did I end falling for you?

no matter how much time has passed

i still thought

you were right here

the special meaning held by this day

today you stood with a happy expression

you looked beautiful while praying to God

but I wasn't the one next to you

and the image of you receiving the blessings

how could I let it go?

so why?

did I end up falling for you?

how we were before?

we can't return to it anymore(I've thought it through)

why?

didn't I hold on to your hand?

no matter how much time has passed

you should've always

been by my side

never changing

but still

even if I'm nowhere near you anymore

i'm praying that you

may be happy for eternity

no matter how much that would make me lonely

no matter how lonely

reading the lyric every single words makes me a little bit touched by it..

i can't imagine if i've to let the person that love walked away from my love

my life empty now without you...

mggu ni aku cuti khas....

Sorry coz my blogger is more to the way I practice my language, typing skill, editing, express feeling. If you are think what I write is for you, I’m so sorry. Ada kawan ku tanya kenapa tak update blog. Satu sebab aku tak update coz ku busy. Banyak sangat nak kena buat. Minggu ni memang minggu penuh dengan cabaran. Aku kena jadi student and jaga family on the same time. Habis class je, petang kena balik rumah. Huhuhu...Memang penat giler. Dahlah weekend pun ada aktiviti. Tak dapat nak rilex sangat. Pagi Isnin pula ada kuiz tapi aku tak study lagi. Dahlah ada assignment aku tak siap lagi. Alamak..I don’t know where I get the disease yang pasti sekarang ni aku dah start batuk-batuk...huhu...Hari ni ada dua ceramah. 1 tentang H1N1 and 1 lagi Women Health & Sex. Something like that. Yang mengejutkan aku my ex ada dekat situ. Ku pelik juga mula-mula. Rupa-rupanya dia jadi technician tak bertauliah. Balik tu kena ambil kupon out. Yang kawan aku ni sibuk nak bawa aku lalu dia. Memang aku lalu. Aku apa lagi senyum and pandang kat dia, siap bergurau lagi macam tak ada apa-apa yang berlaku. Argh...jangan harap aku nak tegur dia lagi. Kawan aku cakap dia ada tegur aku tapi aku tak tengok pun dia. Apa lagi, PADAN MUKA. You don’t really know who I am now. I’m now the same person that you know before this. I am a new person that nobody can predict what I’m going to do. So far, I’m happy after the answer that you gave me. So, please. Don’t start it over again. My friend asked me why don’t I just say Hi to him? I said “No”. My friend said “If like this when will you people ‘berdamai’?” “No at all. Now I’m quite happy with my life coz I erase his name from my memory. As long I’m happy and I do not disturb him, please.” To somebody if you know who I’m talking about tell this guy that please stop any plan or steps that he want to do with me. Just go on with your girlfriend, your future wife, your friends, your life and leave me alone and let me happy with my future boyfriend, future husband, future life, my friends and my family. I’m happy enough with my life now although sometimes I might down by our memories but I promise those won’t effect my life anymore coz I’M JUST WASTING MY LOVELY LIFE AND TIME IF I KEEP ON HOPING YOU COME BACK THROUGH MY DOOR. THERE IS NOTHING BETWEEN US. I ONLY NEED MY OLD J AND NOT THIS NEW J THAT BELONGS TO THAT GIRL. Just give both of us chance for the moment..perhaps till we done with our diploma..then till the day i’m open my heart to befriend with you again, i’m hope when the day come and i decide to rebild our relationship perhaps then i wont turn back again and regret any decision that i made. It take long time for me to let you to come in my life again coz you never convience me that we are friend. Your attitude never show that you really want it.

kronologi cintaku

Last Saturday daftar diri kat UiTM Kampus Kota Samarahan. Roomate ku, Y, S and V. Minggu ni memang full cuma hari nie free sikit. Malam tadi 1.22am dah kena bangun and mendengar PM2 marah kami till 4am. Dahlah malam tue ku habis mesages dengan J dalm pukul 1 lebih...Memang tak tidur lah aku malam tue. Yes, next week J masuk sini dapat PRA Sains. Bestnya.

(05 July 07)

J dah pun masuk semalam. Dia called ku and tanya kat mana suis kipas. Lama gak dia called. Dalam 3minit lebih. Then dia nak jumpa ku before kitaorang start exam. Time tue exam untuk tentukan class for Bel 120 kalau tak silap. Bergaya betul. Dengan cermin mata. Dia nampak cute, handsome, cool, elegan...semualah. Terpikat aku. Paling teruk, time tue dia ada mengadu yang roomate dia ‘lembut’. Ngeri betul dia.

(07 July 07, our 1st year anniversary)

Petang habis class, ku ajak J pergi library coz nak buat PTPTN. Tapi malangnya library tutup. Then kitaorang ‘dating’ kat kantin till 5.30pm lebih. Sampai ku dekat bilik, roomate ku semua sakat ku. Diaorang tanya puas tak aku dating. Macam-macam lagilah.

(09 July 07)

Tengah hari Dear @ J ada called. Mengada-ngada pula panggil ku Honey. Ku nak juga panggil dia Dear tapi takut adik ku dengar. Dia siap kata “Miss you Honey. Love you Honey. Dear want to kiss Honey.” Ku pun balas, “Love you too, Dear. Miss you too, Dear.” Tapi kiss tue ku tak jawablah.

(02 September 07)

First-first ingat nak dinner kat kantin dengan Dear last night tapi parent ku datang hantar barang. So lunch date kat kantin the next day la. Hari tu kitaorang guna baju yang temanya coklat keputihan. Tapi nang bestlah. Kamekorang plan this Thursday jumpa g. Tengoklah.

(09 September 07)

This is messages from Dear.
- Dear pun pening coz tak dapat lihat Honey...
- Honey...Dear miss Honey...can’t wait for tomorrow...
- Honey...you’re not my friend, not my girlfriend, but Honey are everything for Dear...love Honey very much can’t describe with a word how much Dear love Honey...
- Dear pun miss Honey, very miss Honey
- Honey, Dear ngantuk, can Dear sleep with Honey?
- That only picture, Dear want the real Honey

(10 September 07)

Petang dalam pukul 5 lebih, Dear called. First-first dia message tanya ku ada clazz tak. Ku cakap ku baru habis class. Lepas tu dia called. Adalah dalam 5minit lebih. Malam dia called lagi. Time tu aku tengah dinner. Tapi sekejap je dia called.

(11 September 07)

Dear tiba-tiba message “Honey...do you mind if one day, you reall become my Honey” “Just want to ask, until now semua girl yang Dear suka tak suka pada Dear, maybe Dear should couple with Honey... Semalam Dear pun message “Good night Honey, Dear want to hug Honey in Dear’s dream”. “It will, coz Dear miss Honey...”

(14 September 07)

Messages from Dear (26 September 07) Time tu kitaorang ada gaduh sikit..
- I’ve a lot of problem...But, when I’m with u, I was the happiest person, I love u Honey, sorry. I broke my promise...las nite I said I’ll neer send tis word to u.
- I can’t stand it anymore...that word make us closer to each other...Honey...Dear love Honey very much
- Honey...I’m sorry, okay...
- Love Honey too..

Another message from Dear. (Translation)
- Namanya Elizaberth, I call her Panda, burung, Honey and I Love her, Janet called her Inik Andan..org lain called her Berth
- Elizaberth I Miss You...why you didn’t message me? Yes, I’m busy all the time but I want to receive your message, read it then reply it...why you didn’t message me?..
- She know because I Love her...
- I don’t care..I Miss you...I love you...I want to see you...
- About you la...I’m happy eventhough it is only dream but I see you and talk to you...

More messages from Dear
- That’s why honey must be happy..don’t sad la..okay...dear don’t want honey to sad
- What happen? Don’t like that...don’t leave me....alone without honey here...dear need honey
- Dear didn’t ask Honey to be someone else, just be my Honey, be my Elizaberth, be my Panda, be my frenz, be my gurlfren that always happy..

(Unknown date)

From Dear (Again unknown date coz I forgot to write it...) (Translation)
- In you heart...tak dapat keluar, Honey close Honey’s Heart macam mana nak keluar...dear nak mandi ni, cepatlah open you heart...
- Good night....I’m chatting wit another Jes instead of me rite now...now i know...Honey...i’ll try my very besy not to hurt your feeling.
- Honey..I’m sorry because I’m disturbing Honey, I want to thanks Honey because Honey always by my side when I’m down, when I’m sad... I REALLY LOVE YOU HONEY...

Somemore....
- Dear want to hug Honey but can’t, Dear want to kiss Honey but can’t, Dear hope Honey appear in Dear’s dream tonight...
- Okay...tak apa, wait for another day to see Honey wouldn’t kill me...just a bit rindu to see Honey.
- Since the day I started to miss Honey...
- Dear didn’t study...Dear just tell what in Dear’s heart...
- But I wouldn’t kongkong Honey...because Dear also don’t want Honey kongkong Dear...
- Honey...if that person is me, I wouldn’t
- K..Honey, sometime Dear thinking bout Honey, Dear really love Honey, hope we can stay together...

More and more...
- Honey...I’m sorry for what I’ve done, what I’ve said...sorry if I ever hurt you, I still and always love you...
- Honey In my heart...
- Dear also love Honey
- Honey too always support me...
- No matter for long we didn’t see each other that’s not important...important is we already meet each other again...
- (Time aku cakap nak tukar handphone, I told “wait till Dear change for Honey..”)
- Wait till Honey really become my Honey...but Honey always said don’t want if Dear asked
- Honey I Love You...
- No matter what happen I will always loves you...

Messages from Dear (after ku agak lama tak message Dear; 21 November 07)
- What happen to you? Why you didn’t msg me?...If you don’t want to be my friend, just tell me...so I don’t have to wait everyday for you msg..
From me
- Dun say like dat my Dear. Of course Honey want to be ur frend and if possible I want to be ur special. I just not feeling well tis few days. Wat makes u think like dat?
Dear
- Nothing...I want to ask you something? Do you like me..?
Me
- As what? As friend? As brother? As boyfriend? As lover? How about you?
Dear
- As boyfriend..if you do...please don’t...I know I’m too selfish and I can’t control others feeling..
Me
- How about if I say yes? Why? Do you love me too? I admit I do love you as boyfriend. How about u?do u love me? From d bottom of ur heart
Dear
- No...
Me
- Hmm...who say that u r selfish? For me u r not dat kind of man..
Dear
- Thank you..for everything...your birthday will coming soon but I still don’t know what t give you.
Me
- Really? It’s ok..I don’t really need any present. Enough for me if I get birthday wish from d person dat I loved
Dear
- But I want to give you...and I will give you...
Me
- Well, up to you and I wont force you. You are not selfish. For me u r special coz u always by my side and dat was a special present for me.
Dear
- You also always by my side...

One of the message that I love
I will send black rose, I want to be Honey’s enemy so Honey will never forget me, I’ll send pink rose and yellow, I want to be your special fren, orange and white rose, I want to be ur best wishes and live a peaceful life with you, I’L ALSO WILL LOVE YOU, THAT WHY I’LL SEND RED ROSE

Message from Dear (13 December 07)(Translation)
- Ingatkan kamu yang kahwin, nasiblah cousin kamu yang berkahwin...masih ada peluanglah aku macam ni...
Message from me
- Kenapa pula bimbang kalau aku yang berkahwin? Kalau aku kahwin pun bukannya kacau hidup kamu. Kalau saya kahwin pun., saya nak kamu jadi pengapit saya.
Message from Dear
- Taknak...saya nak jadi orang yang duduk di sebelah kamu...hahaha...
Message from Dear (14 December 07)
- Suka hati la mahu tidur awal...aku tidur dengan kamu boleh tak..?
Message from me.
- Tunggu sampai kamu jadi kekasih ku kalau kamu mahu tidur denganku.
Message from Dear
- Kalau aku kahwin pun, aku nak berkahwin dengan kamu.
Message from me
- Kalau tak ada orang yang suka aku, kamu sajalah yang kahwin dengan aku.
Message from Dear
- Aku sayangggg kamu Panda...tak tahu macam mana nak kata, i wish we always can be friend...good morning...

(17 December 07)

Those are my real story...Some of the text I translate it...I admit I still thinking about him especially when I bump with him in UiTM. Now, he is happy with his girlfriend which is his own coursemate and classmate I guess. One of my friend ask me why don't you befriend with him? I asked her back, "Can't you stay with someone that you love happy with his beloved one?" And my friend said "No" so it is what I feel too..

assignment....busy....boring....

da 1 lg assgnment yg ku kn siapkan..then br ku dpt rilex ckit...ala...weekend ni ku kn stay n most probably ku kn stay kt uitm utk sbulan...sabtu ni da xtvt fakulti (OPEN MIKE DAY) dr 2pm till mlm...mlm da dinner tema die black n denims kalo x slh...then mggu 1 lg da xtvt kolej slama 2mggu bturut2...las weekend ku kuar la dgn my 3frens...ktaorg g swimming poll dh tu g mkn dkt jalan song...punyala jauh ktaorg mlancong...hahaha....ptg tu dgn bdn yg pnt2 ku tpaksa buat assgnment...padan muka...nh x siap lg keja ku boleh on9 n tntn tv lg...dasar gila la aku nh...pttnya aku nk kuar hr nh dgn buddy ku tp sbb aku busy ckit so aku ckp kt dia nex wik je kuar...lgpun tgh pokai gler nh...duit dlm dompet pun x smpi rm 10...huhu..nk mkn pa dgn rm 10 je....?dh la pmohonan elaun mkn kn rjected...frust nye...huhuhuhu....

friday is come...

wat to say...?today is friday...now almost 3.30pm and im at library now online looking for materials for my assgnment...dah la lmbt....huhu....i have to complete 2individual assgnment 1 of them is article summary n another 1 is DIFFERENCES BETWEEN PARCHMENT, VELLUM AND MANUSCRIPT...both of the assgnment i have to submit nex week...so this weekend i have to spend my time with my assgnment...so sad kan...?org keluar enjoy dgn kwn2 n gerek or sapa2 la tp ku spend time n stay dkt bilik dgn assgnment...it's ok....lgpun ku mmg single pa...hr biasa ssh ku mau concentrate..mdhn weekend ku dpt focus...tp boring la menghadap laptop je..sakit mata ku...naik juling dh ddk dpn laptop je...k la...jmp lg la nex blog kalo aku free la...kt member smua, enjoy ur weekend..kalo korang kuar, jgn lupa blikan aku mknan ye...coz im hungry gler....hungry tahap lipan... peace dude...kt my new follwer, tlg gn wrn font yg bsesuaian..ku mau baca pun seksa jiwa n raga ku...hahaha....

so bowring............

boring gler hr ni coz aku x da class..tmbh lg..hmmm..assgnment mmg dh dberi tp ku x da mood lg nk buat...matilah mcm nh...ni aku msh cari mood nk buat assgnment..xpun mggu ni aku stay je kt hostel then hopefully weekend ku dpt complete my assgnment..lmbt gler wireless kt hostel ku ni..smbl online ku tgk tv..tggu cta my fav; Lalola...ystrdy ku smpt tgk ckit je...hbs class aku terus pecut pergi blik tv trus on tv3...hehe...my rmate tny how ku dpt btahan dgn mrindu sm1 yg tlalu jauh..?ku ckp rindu sm1 yg tlalu jauh mmg sakit gler...derita...tp hr ni aku btl2 t’igt sgt dgn M mayb sbb ku x da pa2 nk buat tu yg buat ku have a plenty of time to think about M...hmmm...so damn of missing you...please come back..huhu...you gave me thousand of inspiration...las nyte aku, my rmate n sorg lg kwn ktaorg g le D.I cari mknan...so pnt coz ktaorg kn jln kaki..pkl 10 br ktaorg smpi kt blik...smpi tu rehat kjp then trus cuci bj...On d way kuar tu, bump dgn my ex kt blkang mulu..time tu dia dgn his gurl...my frens said that dorg x ubah mcm married couple....i repeated MARRIED COUPLE....My Gosh...cant imagine if sm1 ckp like dat to me...perhaps bla kt luar my frens jmp i n my future boy dorg x ckp km mcm MARRIED COUPLE...

semester baru stat

wat to say..?my jdual sem towk agak byk ksg hgga ku rs boring pulak ddk je dlm blk..hehe..ku tbaca blogger sorg follwer nh..kcian tul ku dgr citer dia..mmg truk la bdk mcm tu..ktkorg dl smggu x tido tau..truk la freshie mcm tu...dorg x sdar bla da MMS yg agk ketat actually scr x lgsg kta sdg build a rlationshp dgn snior..kes2 dmanjakan ni ler yg buat junior naik ats kepala n smbg nk mampus..x pe..aretique..kta bals dendam scr lembut2..ko aim muka dorg then kalo dorg nak pnjm nota wpun x sm dgn course kta, ko pakat dgn member2 ko JANGAN BAGI NOTES KAT DORANG..BIAR DORANG CARI SENDIRI...ko sokong x..?ni ku lg sedih tntg MUET nh...dh surrender je aku nak ambk MUET...huhuhu....pa nak buat...?!dh nsb....x pa la..nex sem ku kn ambk jugak...for aretique...HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY...enjoy ur life...

nh ku buat time exam...

LOVE??!!
Not now..Maybe 5more years. Dalam masa 5tahun towk, ku mau kejar cita-cita and impianku. Dalam 5tahun towk, ku maok bina and prepare for the new of me (I guess...)

TERGERAK UNTUK BERCINTA???!!!
Sometimes...but bukan seperti dulu.. Cuma kadang-kadang hati tergerak untuk menyayangi dan disayangi biasa la tue...But untuk ke nest step, maybe not now...

SELESA HIDUP SEBAGAI???!!!
Single or Double...??? DOUBLE DECKER...hehehe.... For the moment, prefer single. WHY???!!!Coz senang bha... I can do many things... I can spend time more to FAMILY, GOD, FRIENDS and paling penting time for myself. Bila dah terikat dengan komitment, rasa sedikit terbatas walaupun “orang tue” tak kongkong.

YOUR PERSONAL..???!!!!
Black in my life
Susah mauk diramal.. Ada sedikit pendendam...Terlalu mudah jatuh cinta...Seorang pemuja...Penulis..(I guess..)...Pencinta....Naughty

YOUR DREAM...????!!!!
VIOS
HOME
PROFESSION
BUSINESS
LAND

PRINSIP
Hanya tinggal 5tahun lagi untuk aku menikmati hidupku ini (2009-2015)

IF I WERE A BOY FOR 1 YEAR?????!!!!!!
Adakah benda macam tue terjadi..??Perhaps yes... First of all ku akan jadi kacau bilau coz tak tau apa yang terjadi.. Then ku akan approach/tackle 2 gadis pujaan ku...dua2 k...hehe....Bila dah hampir 1tahun, ku break la dengan dorang...

MY TASTE???!!!!(BOY)
IF I WERE A BOY, ku nak perempuan yang understanding, happening, stylo, sweet, manja, mature, independent, simple... paling penting la TERIMA AKU SEADANYA...

MY TASTE????!!!!(GIRL)
MY TASTE UNTUK LELAKI....???my roomate padah like my ex...(1st love...)Maybe i guess...
understanding, sporting, funny, manja sikit la, simple, naughty, berkaca mata, tall, tak kisah la rambut panjang or pendek janji smart...paling penting la TERIMA AKU SEADANYA...dah pernah terjumpa tapi JODOH TIADA....why understanding...?coz ku jenis yang kadang-kadang lebih kepada friends...

TAK GUNA...DAMN...

TAK GUNA...MEMANG GILA LA...!@#$%^&*()....FAHAM2 LAH APA YANG KU NAK SEBUT TUE...AKU NAK SEBUT TAPI TAK BOLEH COZ IANYA AKAN MENAMBAHKAN LAGI DOSA-DOSA AKU YANG DAH SEDIA BANYAK NI...SO, KU CUMA DAPAT GUNA BAHASA2 DI ATAS AJA...MEMANG KU ANTI GILER DENGAN SIR TUE...MUDAHAN SAMPAI GRADE KU TAK JUMPA DIA LAGI...UNTUK SIR THANKS A LOT COZ SIR BERJAYA MENJADI LELAKI KEDUA YANG BERJAYA BUAT AKU MENITISKAN AIR MATA...YANG PERTAMA TAK LAIN AND TAK BUKAN MY CRUSH...SECOND IS SIR...AND CONGRATES ONCE AGAIN COZ SIR DAH BERJAYA MENAMBAH BILANGAN ORANG2 YANG BERJAYA MELUKAKAN HATIKU YANG DAH SEDIA TERLUKA INI...TERMASUK SIR LEBIH KURANG 10ORANG YANG BERJAYA MELUKAKAN HATIKU HINGGA MEMBUATKU MENANGIS...CONGRATES KAT YOU'LL...TO HAFIZUL...THANKS A LOT BRO...AND SO SORRY COZ TAK DAPAT BAGI THE BEST PERFORMANCE FOR YOU...I KNOW YOU ARE NOT SATISFY WITH MY PERFORMANCE...SORRY BRO...AND THANKS COZ YOU HAVE SACRIFICE FOR US...COZ YOU SUDI BUAT 1000% THINGS FROM A TO Z YOU DID IT BY YOURSELF...AND THANKS ONCE AGAIN FOR YOUR CARE JUST NOW...BUAT KAK AZIE, KIZZY, FARA, DEDEK...SO SORRY COZ TAK DAPAT BERI THE BEST TO ALL OF YOU...

YES....

yes...done with my test..tinggal assgnment je lagi so kena concentrate on last assignment then rilex kejap...nex 2weeks final start...all the best utk semua ye...banyak betul benda blaku semenjak dua menjak nh...kalo x pndai nak handle trutama bla dgr brita2 yg blh mjatuhkan seseorg, mmg boleh bgaduh antr satu am lain...tp ku try brada tgh2(fair n square la katakan..)..ku takkan prcy pa org ckp unless ku sndr yg nmpk..bukan pa..ku tak nak sejarah lama t’ulang kembali..gara2 ku dgr ckp org ku hmpr khilangan org yg ku syg suatu ktika dulu...mgkn dh bukan jodoh..last2 ktaorg break jugak...sedih jugak le time tue...bla fikir balik, da hikmah bla ssuatu yg sedih mnimpa kta..mcm skrg nh, kalo da pa2 hal mlibatkan hati n perasaan, ku x bgitu mudah mlatah..kali ni, kalo pintu hati tbuka utk mnyayngi, apa yg ku harapkan bukan je aku, bahkan org tue jugak bsedia ke arah hbgn tsebut..biarlah kami sama2 mrasai n mnikmati rasa kasih, cinta dan sayang itu sama2..pg td da test Organization of Information..ku cuma bgantung markah pada part A n B je..part C tue kalo open book test mmg ku dpt jwb...time tue mmg ku blur gler..sampai trasa mcm nak nangs je bla tgk soalan die...1st2 ku nak jwb soalan 2....alik2 ku x tau pa nak explain so ku jwb soalan 1 ler...tue pun ku x tau betul oe salah jwpn ku...hrp betul ler...malam pulak da test IT in information agencies...semua subjek ktaorg mmg sng tp x tau knp time test je blur..mcm org x blajar pulak..huhu...kepala pun naik gler fikir byk sgt test smpi smlm ku n kawan ku lupa jalan nak g class sedangkan dh 4 bulan ktaorg class kat sana...hmm..itulah penangan test lecturer ktaorg...time stress2 buat test td, ku blh dpt idea buat sajak ler tp nnt ku nak edit2 sikit n nak bagi kat kawan ku yg da band...try pulak jadi penulis lirik..apa lagi my followers(macam banyak je bunyi...hehe...) jalankan tanggungjawab anda dengan mkritik..haha...so far ku dh letak dua sajak tmasuk yang nh...sila tgglkan komen anda ya...kalo da error spelling tue, buat2 ler korg fhm pa yg ku nak taip erk....so check it out...
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sambung balik ler...hbs test smlm ku lepak kejap dkt kantin teman budak2 bli makanan...ku nak bli pun ssh gak coz dh KOPAK sangat dh nh...duit dlm wallet pun x smpi rm 10...huhu...ystrdy ku tny la member2 aku tntg berita yg ku dgr n dapat br je semalam...sumpah..ku x tau pa yg sedang blaku skrg nh...sbb tue ku tkejut bla someone approach me trus ckp smthng...pa yg blh ku ckp kalau anda berada di pihak yang betul, tak perlu begitu kalut untuk menegangkan benang yang basah..kalau betul, berdiam diri adalah cara yang terbaik untuk menyelesaikan masalah itu..kalau tak selesai pun, sekurang-kurangnya masalh itu reda buat seketika..kuatkan dirimu untuk menghadapi semua itu..jangan bebankan diri anda dengan benda-benda tersebut kerana apa yang terjadi sebenarnya satu ujian untuk menjadikan lebih matang dan tabah di masa depan..tapi tak bermakna aku percaya pada si pencerita coz baik si pencerita mahupun si tertuduh masing-masing baru ku kenali selama lebih kurang 2tahun..2tahun belum cukup untuk kita menentukan baik dan buruknya seseorang itu...2 tahun belum cukup untuk kita menilai hati budi seseorang itu...aku agak terkilan apa yang berlaku pada batch ktaorang...mungkin sebab terlalu ramai yang membuatkan semua ini terjadi..seharusnya, bila kita ramai, kita lebih kepada sesuatu yang fun, sweet...tapi so far, selama 4semester ku dah bersama dengan semua, ku memang agak sedih...memang tak semua insan adalah sempurna sebab itulah kita begitu ramai di muka bumi adalah untuk saling melengkapi antara satu sama lain agar semua kekurangan itu terhapus..tapi apa yang boleh aku lihat semua kekurangan itu makin bertambah...masing-masing nak menang..part 1 dulu aku group 1..time tue semua baru kenal..sebab jumlah yang ramai dalam 90 macam tue, kita orang terpaksa dibahagi kepada 3kumpulan...sudahlah nasib dipecahkan kepada 3kumpulan, pulak tue bolah berpuak-puak lagi di dalam kelas..so far, ada satu group ni memang aku respect giler...kenapa???bukan mengutuk atau whatever tapi memang aku respect dorang nh....every semester at least sekali dorang anak keluar, hang out sama-sama, spend time together and buat plan pergi keluar....raun-raun bah ba kata orang kuching...dornag akan buat plan pergi jauh-jauh dari uitm...bestnye...secara tak langsung dorang dapat spend time together...kat kelas memang kita ada jumpa, n lepeak-lepak tapi bila kita keluar beramai-rami macam tue, for sure satu kenangan yang lebih terindah bisa tercipta...memang best la korang...apa kata next time korang usulkan pada group-group lain juga..?then usulkan pada part-part lain..?secara tak langsung kita dapat beramah mesra..mana tahu ada yang berkenan antara satu sama lain tapi hanya mampu memerhati dari jauh sebab tak dapat jumpa atas sebab lain part or class..

okey..kat bawah nih sajak yang ku cipta...so kat followers, jalankan tugas anda...afundi sajak hantar ke www.psychepacify.blogspot.com

BIDADARI

Dirimu menghidupkan kembali jiwaku yang telah lama mati.
Senyumanmu, lirik manjamu, lengok badanmu
membuatku resah dan gelisah setiap masa.
Terpaku seketika tatkala bertembung mata denganmu.
Kencang sekali degupan jantungku pabila kau memandang padaku.
Kau secantik bidadari dari kayangan
sekalipun belum pernah lagi ku berjumpa dengan bidadari itu.
Putih kulitmu seputih salji di musim sejuk.
Cantik rupamu secantik pemandangan matahari terbenam.
Licin kulitmu selicin kain sutera
sekalipun belum pernah ku menyentuhnya.
Tatkal dirimu melangkah, terasa puputan bayu bertiup melimpasi aku.
Tatkala dirimu berbicara, indah sungguh gemersik suaramu,
merdu sungguh intonasi mu, semerdu siulan burung-burung.
Senyumanmu umpama sang suria yang menceriakan hari-hari manusia.
Menatap wajahmu memberi aku satu ketenangan.
setenang air di lautan yang dihiasi dengan hempasan ombak-ombak kecil,
begitulah juga perasaanku tatkala bertembung mata denganmu,
tenang tapi bergelora.
Sesungguhnya, akulah yang paling bertuah di muka bumi ini.

~ilham:Miss Independence ; 03 march 2009~

TELAH

Telah banyak kata ku ungkapkan.
Telah beribu sajak ku tulis tuk persembahkan padamu.
Telah berkali diri ini jatuh dan terluka kerana dirimu.
Telah berjuta titisan air mata jatuh kerana dirimu.
Telah ku abdikan dirimu di hatiku setiap detik.
Telah ku korbankan separuh dari hidupku hanya untukmu.

Telah ku menangis bersama dirimu.
Telah ku terluka bersama dirimu.
Telah ku terjatuh bersama dirimu.
Telah ku mati bersama dirimu.

Telah ku harungi berjuta rintangan untuk mendapatkanmu.
Telah ku lakukan sejuta perkara hanya untuk dirimu.
Menangis, terluka tak pernah ku biarkan dirimu sendirian.
Bukan menagih atau mengungkit tapi inilah hakikat.

Selayaknya inikah balasannya?
setelah diriku menangis dan terluka bersama dirimu.
Selayaknya inikah yang kau berikan?
setelah penat diriku mengejar dirimu.
Selayaknya inikah yang ku terima?
setelah cintaku dirimu miliki?
Selayaknya inikah berimu?
setelah aku yankinkan pada dirimu tentang cintaku padamu.
Apa mahumu?
Katakan padaku,
agar bisa aku penuhi permintaan dirimu.
Jangan takut untuk menghampiri diriku,
jika belum dirimu mengenali diriku.
Berikan diriku satu peluang untuk menyayangi dirimu.
Berikan dirimu juga satu peluang untuk mengenali diriku.

Lapangkan sedikit ruang hatimu untuk diriku.
Bukan simpati yang ku harapkan,
Tapi sayang, kasih, cinta yang ku inginkan.
Bisakah aku untuk menikmati semua itu.
Hanya dari dirimu bidadariku.
Hanya sayang, kasih dan cinta darimu yang ku mahukan,
dan bukannya permata yang ada pada dirimu yang sering diagungkan.
Tapi sekeping hatimu yang penuh dengan kesucian,
sekeping hatimu yang penuh dengan ketulusan,
sekeping hatimu yang penuh dengan keikhlasan,
sekeping hatimu yang penuh dengan cinta.

Berilah diriku peluang untuk bersamamu diriku untuk kali ini,
kerana diriku lemah untuk hidup hanya ditemani potret dirimu.
Berilah diriku peluang untuk bersamamu kembali,
kerana diri ini tak mampu lagi untuk hidup sendirian lagi.
Kejayaan, kekayaan yang diriku miliki kini tiada maknanya,
tanpa dirimu di sisi diriku lagi.

Maafkan diriku kerana terlanjur mencintai dirimu.
Maafkan diriku kerana tidak berhenti memburu dirimu.
Biar tersungkur, biar terluka untuk entah berapa kali sudah,
takkan diriku berhenti mengejar dan memburu dirimu,
hanya kerana dirimu yang diriku idamkan.
dan hanya kerana dirimu, diriku hidup semula.

Pintaku, mengertilah hati yang kecil ini.
Namamu, senyumanmu, lirik manjamu, jelinganmu, ciumanmu,
semua itu masih segar di dalam kotak memoriku.
Bagai baru lagi hubungan kita hinggakan dirimu sanggup berpaling tadah.
Apa salahku?
Hanya kerana mencintai dirimu?
Sayang, berikan diriku kebenaran siapakah diriku dalam hidupmu.
Sekalipun perit untuk diriku menerimanya.

Berikan diriku satu kesempatan untuk terus menyayangi dirimu.
Berikan diriku satu kesempatan untuk terus memuja dirimu.
Sekalipun hanya dengan menatap potretmu,
sekalipun hanya dengan melihat dirimu dari jauh,
sekalipun hanya dengan berjumpa dengan dirimu dalam mimpi,

Maafkan diriku kerana hati ini degil untuk melupakan dirimu.
Bukan mudah untuk diriku menghapuskan ingatan terhadap dirimu.
Bukan mudah untuk membuang bayangan dirimu ynag tersemat di hati.
Bukan mudah untuk melupuskan kenangan saat kita bersama,
kerana hanya dengan itu diriku masih mampu bernafas di dunia yang fana ini.

~ilham sis mona, 26 03 09 (sehari sebelum genapnya 4tahun 2bulan hubungan kami)

my day

nothing really interesting today..only i've done one of my test..so tggl lg around 4test kot...ystrdy da speaking test...okay lor...dpt jwb jugak...penat giler hr nh..bukan hr nh je tp mggu nh...for the 1st time, mggu nh hmpr 1mggu ku x online...mmg ku trasa nk online tp dh busy sgt jd x trasa lg nk online..hehe...well..las sunday "someone" ku tiba2 msj...ye la...dh 4bulan die lgsg x contact...then rmate ku tny so how korg..?mksd mcm mn dgn hbgn korg..ku ckp no komen..ku nak single je for the moment...ku tak nak da pa2 sebarang ikatan...so far, hatiku msh single..blm da sapa2 yg bjaya "mgoda" imanku ini...ceh..haha...well..smbl tulis blog, smpt lg ku buka facebook..tue pun lmbt giler...tp hny satu sbb ku still sbr dgn facebook wpun lmbt...wat makes ku still btahan dgn facebook..?coz ku dh jmp balik smone yg ku tetap syg wpun ku dah bkali2 tluka sbb org ya...bt till now i still love dat person...skrg pun hati ku bdegup kencang tatkala mbaca n mnatap wajahnya wpun skadar dlm sekeping gambar...hny gambar jd tatapan utk mngubat hati yg rindu..ikutkan ktaorg x jauh mana pun..stil area kuchng...till now ku still ttanya2 kenapa dia brubah..?wat makes dat person brubah..?only dat person know...M, i want u to know that i always love and miss you..

GIVE ME A CHANCE

Give me a chance to love you
Give me a chance to stay by your side
Give me a chance to show how much I love you

I wont force you to accept my love
I wont force you to care for me
What I want is love you, stay by your side

I wont make you cry
I wont make you sad

I’m not going to make a promise
Coz I’m afraid that I’m going to broke the promise

Let me love you from far
Coz I’m afraid I’m going to hurt you
Let me love you from far
If that you want

I promise I wont force you to accept me
But please,
Please give me a chance to love you
That’s all I want from you

I’ll wait for you, my love

~MO_BE~

23rd march 2009

now is 2118....so tired...many thngs already happen n going to b happen in tis week..wat a tiring week....well...kubaru je settle dgn 1 presentation..ku x puas hati sgt coz byk bnd kn tkr las minit sbb pak cik tue yg minta...geramnya...dh tue, time buat html pnt2 ku buat kn REJECT BULAT-BULAT...Tuhan je tau pa yg ku rasa time tue...skrg nh pun ku rasa nak nangis sgt2...ckit lg ku dh nak nangs...balik nanti mmg ku nangis puas2...byk lgku nak citer tp smpn dl...i really nid some space...for MY GURL, u're so sweet..thanks 4 ur support...

i miss you so much

im at london now...hehe....kt library now...online looking material for my assgnment...i've to submit my assgnment tis thrsday...tis week till april going to my busy week...got so many thngs to do..huhu...i miss my beloved one...miss dat person too much...got many thngs i want to ask to dat person..dat person was my ex-classmate during 2005 for around 2months..then dat person moved to sekolah teknik batu lintang..n now dat person one of the students at mktb pguruan batu lintang..im mstill hunting for dat person althugh i've been hurt for many times...why..?coz i love dat person so much..i cant help myself from stoping thinking about dat person...my love...u are special for me...i want u to know dat i always love since 1st time i proposed u dat is on 27th january 2005..i still remember dat moment coz dat time i gave my ring dat i always use..my las time saw u on 2007 if im not mistaken in someone's wedding..dat day u look so nice...wat i can do now is loving u for a 1000 miles away..im hurt inside bt i'll nvr stop u..dat is not my promise coz im afraid dat i'll broke my promise...my email dat im using now is our combination of name...dat is mobe..MO is ur name n BE is my name...

saturday 14 march 2009

many thngs happen today...pagi blok ktaorg da xtvt kolej..mmg best la...cm ku x dpt njoy myself sgt2 coz ku bmbg tntg ftsl...my plan lps hbs xtvt trus g main ftsl..then x da transport x dpt la ku nak main...td kwn ku msj ckp dorg menang..juara lg..congrates la kt dorg....agk sedih la coz ku yg excited nak main tp x dpt main..well..x pa la...nex sem je main....lgpun bg chance dorg senior main...ku kalo join pun mst jd smpanan je coz ku x pndi main sgt....

so stress....

only God know wat i feel rite now...i want to cry...so many work hav to do...asal semua lec suka suruh buat n hntr keja pd waktu n tarikh yg sama...?KENAPA??????WHY???????

class stat balik la....

sedey nya..x puas lg cuti...bukan pa..las weekend aku busy dgn lmn web yg ku kena siapkan...so x da rest sgt...dgn keadaan kurang mengizinkan, ku paksa diri jugak utk siapkan keja bdepan dgn my love bjam2..pg td g jmp eye specialist coz djangka mata ku stil da kuman yg x mampus2 lg..yg lawaknye time cek mata, 3baris t'akhr yg mn ku kn teka number semua salah..huhu...tis coming frdy pun aku kn cek lg..pttnya ptg ku dtg then member cakap ptg jmaat da trip g PUSTAKA..so how...?kn la call doktor tny dpt x awalkan appoinment....yg best skrg, ku kembali single..hehe..bestnye rasa....slama ni mmegang status je..bla single nh, best pulak rasa...IM FREE....final dh dekat woi....x sabar nak cuti lm2...k la..ku escape class actually..malas nk g class..lgpun byk bnd ku nk buat...

akhirnya.....

akhirnya selesai sudah presentation ku..lega sikit la coz miss x da tny pa2..mayb sbb article aku sama dgn anne kot..hehe…tp x tiru okey..gua buat sendiri..pg td jam 4.40 br tido gara2 nak siapkan html..tension gler..dah siap sikit ler….x tau la nanti mcm mana…huhu…I miss my ex-roomate so much…x tau mcm mn nk contact die..sedihnye…rugi btl die quit coz dh sbelah kaki ktaorg kat shah alam..alang2 lor…hmmm….citer tntg futsal interpart…da 1 team nh dorg bw org luar main..tp day g x sedar kot..ku sedar da org luar coz ku cam sangt2 muka dorang nh…dorang menang la..nak main pun jgn la main tipu….kta njoy cukupla..x main la bawa org luar….but then life must go on rite..?alamak…keja x siap lagi…chow dulu..byk yg nak buat nh..nex week mmg jadual aku packed la dari selasa sampai weekend n mungkin blarutan sampai akhir mac n awal april…final dah dekat woi…sebulan je lagi….cepat betul masa blalu….mcm baru smalam ktaorg stat sem…..sory la kalo citer2 ku mcm bosan je...aku mmg jenis yg agak mbosankan...old fashion bah...kaku jak....

tension.........

so stress tis week..hav to submit so many assgnment...plus got test las nyte....so bad....only one ques dat i undrstand n can answr...n d rest...!@#$%^hmm..br balik dr trip ke bhgn teknologi x jauh dr iptar...ok la..balik ja trus tnampak org yg rasa best....tolongla....x sbr tggu esk...then im free for d moment...nex week da ftsl interfakulti match n d following day da test...gila x...?pa boleh buat...dh nsb insn bgelar student.....byk g bnd ku mau share tp x da mood skrg coz agk penat n stress...for all of u enjoy ur day n life wit ur bloved ones...

I IN LOVE..........

hehe....i really in love...td baca blogger sm1 ku rs hmpr nangs ler...sedih siot baca blog die..rasanya x lmbt sgt ku wish HAPPY VALENTINE DAY kat korang2 semua...tahun nh ku kseorgan..tiada org tsyg(mcm dl de yg special slain dr fmly n kwn2..) tp smua tue small d matter...love is universal..hmm...i in love with someone..dr dl(means dr part 1 la..)die nh byk support ku wpun ku tau kdg2 de bnd yg ku buat tue x msk akal tp die ttp support jugek...hehe..sooner oe later impian ku mauk polah bisnes akan tcapai..akhrnya, da juak org sudi invest duit utk bisnes ku n org ya slh sorg darinye..x ckp dgn invest, nya siap support g ku..i love you so much..utk pmulaan ktaorg akan invest sorg rm50..yg sggp invest tue die x kisah kalo x bjaya bisnes ktaorg tp ku n rmate ku yg mn slh sorg yg invest dh buat plan utk elakkan dari hilang walau 1sen pun..means...andai dtakdirkan ktaorg x bjaya, ktaorg still da back up n 8 least dpt byr blk modal dorg...

P.P.K.P

HA....dorg la my love....happy birthday boys..love both of you so much...

hmmm....mcm biasa ku stat my blog with hmm..smlm da ppkp...dr 8-6.30..byk yg ku dpt la..sakit hati n sakit badan..huhu...ktaorg bjaya siapkan task2 slama 2jam19minit...gler siot lari slama tue...ktaorg da 7checkpoint...padang dkt car park a then tangki air uitm..pastue lari ke mulu...checkpoint ke 4 ladang...ke 5 kena terjun dlm tasik uitm..kat sni le blaku adegan2 pgaduhan yg agk truk antr ku n sorg bdk course......(rahsia k..) pastue g dkt surau last skali g studio..penat gler....hbs tur odw blk bilik ku tgk parent ku dh smpi ambk ku..sayang my family lots...ku mandi kejap..mlm tue ktaorg mkn besar smbt bday my love...nk tau sapa my love karang ler korang tgk..hr nh da open mike day..mmg best gler...plg best bdk part 1 n paul carling yg mwakili bdk part 2 bw lagu terima kasih cinta...ngetop gler suara die..

yang nh lak ktaorg yg junior kn salam dgn SUPERSWENIOR ktaorg....

my best day...

Bestnye...akhrnya da juak org hargai hasil karya ku...x sgka da byk respon...thanks a lot...skrg ku mcari medium utk aku ketengahkan ku pun sajak in BM...yg BI ku dh da platform utk tonjolkan bakat ku...br ja dpt kantau for print...wpun tpaksa buka print mlm2...tp x pe...ku br je hntr kt kwn ku lagu yg ku compose utk die...x taula pe pdpt die...

!@#$$%%^&*&*(

hmmm....monday n tuesday ku MC 2hr lcoz sakit..boring gler MC...kalo dmam mmg ku g je claz tp kali nh sakit agk truk la..hr towk pun stil sakit..tp 2run ja ke claz...hmmm...ystrdy, my 1st love msj tny pa ku polah..so, we all msj2 kjp la coz ku bz n x trasa glak mau msj..ku pun dlm proses rbuild our frendshp...valentine coming soon...so HAPPY VALENTINE DAY kt korg semua...

A: which one u wanna give me?

· Moon
· Teddy
· Flower
· Ballons
· Sweets
· Ring
· rainbow

I WILL SEND U D MEANING AFTER U CHOOSE

moon
-u care for me

teddy
-best friend

flowers
-u always miss me

ballons
-u like me

sweets
-frens

ring
-u want me to stay around

rainbow
-u love me

I WANT TO GIVE YOU MOON SO THAT YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I CARE FOR YOU
TEDDY COZ I WANT TO BE YOUR BEST FRIEND,
FLOWERS TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I MISS YOU
BALLONS CIZ I LIKE YOU,
SWEETS COZ I WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND,
RING COZ I WANT YOU TO STAY AROUND ME
&
RAINBOW TO SHOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU!!!

yes....

well..done wit presentation just now ok la..tp asyk nevous ya ku x suka..hmmm...ystrdy nang pening gla eh.smpi blk ku sumbat panadol active fast 2biji trus tido tp skjp ja la...dlm 10minit kdk ya...bgn ya ok ckit la..bout 2day..?well..ku da xcape 1 claz ats sbb2 yg ny ku tahu..plan nk buat summary miss favilla smpi hbs..korg rs ku buat x..?mst la x..dr sem 1 smpi skrg x pndi serik la..sggp ku jd BATMAN gara2 polah las minit..GILA x ku towk..hehe.....ystrdy mmg best gler wpun pnt coz org spon mkn...BIG APPLE u...best eh..lain kali blanja g k..guro2 ja ba...thanks a lot...yes 2mrw ku blk..woi miela...berani ko ckp org srwk malas..ko nk kn hentam ke dgn ku...hehe....ku rindu dkt my 1st love tp pa boleh buat...die milik org...ku hny hdp dgn kngn2 antr kta bdua wpun ianya hny singkat..., why i love him very much.?sbb nya romantic, nice looking, bkaca mata(my taste).. time ya mmg happy la..kmkorg prnh "break" sketika coz nya x mauk org slh aggp tntg kmkorg..(bkn pa time ya km TEMAN TAPI MESRA..tp gn Honey n Dear)..stakat I LOVE YOU ya dh biasa dh...i stil thinking bout him...love n miss u so much...MUAHHHHHHHHH

so tired today....

so tired today..kuar polah assgnment dr 1-7pm...lps buat assgnment mkn2 dkt J n J..then da org sponsor kt big apple...thanks a lot....

so sad.....

so sad...tlupa indah my pswrd for blogger...ya la ssh glak byk pswrd...so HAPPY NEW YEAR to semua la walaupun sdkt tlambat...so apa azam baru...?mauk ada gerek..?mauk kaya...?semua ya tpulang pd ktkorg la...mun mcm aku azam ku NO LOVE, SINGLE IS SIMPLE...n smestinya mauk score dlm stdy...sdar2 ku dh masuk semester akhr tahun ke2...mun x da aral melintang,may 2010 ku graduate...doa2kan ye...ku salute sorg junior ku time skul...i admit ku mminati pnulisannya n hope dpt share anythng tntg bdang pnulisan dgnnya...so PIJUL....mun ko tbaca harap ko sudi join blogger u towk....