long period

haiyo......lm btl dh x tulis blog...bkn pa...malas nk tulis...byk g bnd nk buat n x da ms msg nk bkhayal nk tulis dkt blog...another 1day to cuti but no cuti lor....test n kuiz mnanti aftr cuti....it's ok than...final year oredy....i know i can do it..chaiyo...ku skrg nh tgh upset sgt2...da few krisis dgn member pasal asgnmts la...tp demi masa depan, i try to b profesional...probs x hbs2..lg2 duit..haiyo...byk btl duit nk guna...mana la kyu nk cekau duit nh...?huhuhu...blm lg tmasuk fmly probs, frens n mcm2 g la...tak apa...kn kebal nh....kn jadi kejam ckit...tak kan br bnd nh tjadi dh giver up......come on......buat teman2 smua...happy holiday...yg chinese happy chinese new year n happy valentine too.....valentine wish bkn untuk yg kapel jer...kt kwn2 pun blh wish....

almost there

AJK BLOK 4 ; Min, Farhana, Fyza, Anis & Lieya.. antara AJK tmasuk skali juri khas...heheh

sedar2 dah nak habis sem 5..nex sem goin to be super senior pd semua students intake JUL 07..macam mimpi je dah hampir habis n dapat sampai ke peringkat ni..tharu, sedih, gembira, bahagia, suka, duka..semua hadir dalam satu..macam2 kenangan yang aku dapat bsama dengan rakan-rakan juga ex ku..ermmku try rcall apa yg tjadi..sem 1 ok la n rapat dgn sm1..tp rsult ku agk truk..ckp makan ja..n tpaksa repeat 1 paper..sem 2 ku single..da juga yg repeat..huhu..sem 3 my rsult naik n x da repeat lg smpi sem4..hrp sem ni x da repeat la..byk kngn yg manis n pahit n semua itu tpahat d hati..las saturday 17 october 09 da Malam Pemerindang Ati..the best nyte ever after..having fun watching peoples sings n dancing...wat d best nyte..i really njoy it bt still in stress dat time though I'm secreaming d whole xtvt bt I'm still stres..thanks for the Seri Gading Blok 4 AJK for this 2 semesters..I love it...korang memang best...

cinta antara kita

Duta:sejak dari duluku menyintaimu
kau tahu begitu
namun kau berpura
ku masih teringat kau peluk diriku
yg telah membuat ku menyintai mu
sudah berapa lama
diriku initak bertemu mu
mungkin ku harap jua
kau merindu ku
sebagaimanaku rinduimu
Duta:cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usiaku menyinta dirimu
ku hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintakuku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....
Baizura Kahar:setelah kau pergi jauh dari sisi
tiada ku cinta selain dirimu
ku ingin bersama dgnmu selamanya
walaupun sehingga ke akhir nyawa
mungkin kau tak mengerti
maksud ku dulu pada dirimu
kiniku kan menyinta dirimu itu sehingga ke akhir waktu
Baizura Kahar:cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usiaku menyintai dirimu
ku hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintaku
ku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....
Duta:sudah berapa lama
diriku ini
tak bertemu mu
Baizura Kahar:mungkin ku harap jua
kau merindu ku
sebagaimanaku rindumu
Duta:cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usiaku menyinta dirimu
Baizura Kahar:hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintakuku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....
Duta and Baizura Kahar:cinta antara kita
tiada penghalangnya
walau akhir usiaku menyintai dirimu
ku hanya menunggu mu
menyata kau cintakuku kan berjanji
menyintamu syg....

~dedicated just for u....~

good morning n have a nice n wonderful day more than ystrdy...

pg ni plan nk bgn lmbt ckit coz bdn aku msh pnt2 n skt2 n mata pun msh ngantok tp awl pg org dh ketuk pintu hati...eh...pintu dorm la nk print..duit punya pasal aku buka jugak...mlm td smpt msj dgn seorg kwn lm, sorg kwn br n my angel(kakak akulah..)dlm keadaan yg pnt tahap mlampau..alik2 tggu my angel eply msj alu ttido x sedar dunia...dh ku tsilent hp coz i tot she wont txt me anymore..mcm ku x knl prangainya ya..mun da pa2 ja br msj ku...hehe...nya msj around 1.06am..nang x tauk pa tjadi..nya msj pdh nya thidu bau yg wangi gilak2 time maok g toilet..tang leka ja mun hidu nya pdh..blik dr toilet nya pdh nya hidu bau yg nang busuk gilak2...ya nya tkt bha..ku sakat la bau wangi ya dtg dr bliknya coz nya br kuar dr blik n yg busuk dtg dr toilet bekas slipar yg nya bw..hahaha....hjg mggu pun kn buat keja..bosan lah...tp demi masa depan, chaiyo2...mlm td is d best day in d week...having fun n mmalukan diri sndr yg sdia malu tp NANG GEMPAK GILA LA...to bdk2 IS 110 trutama yg sem 5, u all r d best n sporting frens...we're having fun together, we 4get all our worries bout tests, asgnmts, conflicts btween each other...wat we do las nyte is eat, making fun, laugh, laugh, laugh and laugh....we even cant control ourselves...we behave like we still in primary or secaondary skul i guess....hahahahahah.... =D...

cuti dah dekat tapi not really in holiday mood..

I hope holiday is not coming around...why...?coz banyak lagi assignment tak siap and banyak lagi kena buat..dah tue lepas raya lak ada 2test and assignments yang kena subit..tadi lecturer bagi consultation regarding final project..lecturer tur ada sentuh tentang communication...apa yang lecturer cakap tadi macam betul je...yes i admit dalam grouping ni banyak benda nak handle..dalam 4orang 1group pun dah payah nak handle apa lagi kalau dalam 8 ke 9 orang group member...lagi banyak ragam dan kerenah yang nak dilayan..kadang-kadang rasa nak give up juga tapi bila fikir lagi buang masa nak give up sekarang nih since dah nak habis semester..tahan je la..entahlah...memang tension tahap yang terlampau lah..mana tahan hari-hari macam ni..dah tu si dia dekat seminggu tak contact..rindu juga lah tapi kena tahan bila bersama dengan dia ni.. kena ikut rentak dia..and seorang kawan aku ni memang suka sangat seksa aku..memang tak sah kalau tak seksa hidup aku..tadi aku ada terserempak dengan dia tapi aku buat tak tahu je..bukan apa..cuma aku rasa sakit hati dekat dia..

Saya tak kisah bila kamu bersama lelaki itu kerana kamu bisa menjadi milik dia.

Tapi apa yang melukakan hatiku bila dirimu menjauh dari aku dan menafikan hal yang sebenar.

Nyatakan hal sebenar dan bebaskan diriku dari terus tertanya-tanya.

Cukuplah dirimu menyeksa diriku..

kalau boleh aku tak nak cuti. salah satu sebab kalau cuti nanti aku pokai..then tak dapat jumpa si dia..dahlah seminggu dia tak contact langsung..lagilah lepas cuti karang busy nak final memang tak dapat jumpa pun...uhue...tapi yang best kalau cuti karang, ada ex schoolmate ku ajak jumpa..dorang ajak pergi jamming..aku on je..janji ku dapat lepak-lepak dengan dorang..transport pulak ada sorang laki ni bermurah hati nak angkut kitaorang..hehehe..bahagianya hidup...at least walaupun tak rapat dulu, kalau jumpa area uitm, dia akan tegur or paling tak pun dia akan senyum.. laki tue sekarang kalau tak silap part 3 Tourism...aku pun tak pasti sangat..hehe...sorry bro...k la...panjang sangat dah ni...kat budak2 yang beraya, selamat hari raya aidilfitri...baik2 k..tahun ni aku dapat duit raya dari best friend of mine..walaupun tak banyak, tapi amat bermakna...ampun maaf di pinta..halalkan semua makan minum, terkasar bahasa and tingkah laku..adios...

09 09 09

wat a great n wonderful date n somthing great happen today..one of my old fren bday ystrdy..km lm dh x cntct coz ada krisis yg wjd atas sebab kdegilan dan keegoan msg2..i guess..today she in a sad situation..dia khilangan one of her best friend.. might dun understand or know wat she feel right now but i feel great since her willing to tell me wat happen..byk lg yang aku nak share tapi bukan sekarang ye..mgkn next time...

this songs is for you

Cry On Your Pillow

I wanna be,

I wanna be

I wanna be more

I wanna be,

I wanna be

He says he loves you

Now you don’t wanna leave

You’re so confused you think you’re right where you wanna be

I’m always here for you; truth is its killing me

Cuz I know when you come back what it’s gonna be

I let you have a good cry

I’ve been taking this lying down

Now I’m inside out

I think you got the wrong guy

If I never said it before

Girl I’mma say it now

He’s tearing you apart

The heartbreak don’t stop

Come home and cry on your pillow

Right here to catch you when you fall

You know I’m the one you call

Come home and cry on your pillow

I got a shoulder you can lean

Take it all I’d give you me

Cuz I really wanna be much more than your pillow

More than a best friend (best friend)

I think it’s evident

That I wanna be more than your pillow…girl

When you’re lonely

When he leaves again

I’m the one standing by when you need a friend

When you’re hurting

When your hearts in two

I’m the one s’ always there to help you make it through

I let you have a good cry (a good cry)

I’ve been taking this lying down

Now I’m inside out

I think you got the wrong guy (wrong guy)

If I never said it before

Girl I’mma say it now

He’s tearing you apart

The heartbreak don’t stop (don’t stop)

Come home and cry on your pillow (home…and cry on your pillow)

Right here to catch you when you fall

You know I’m the one you call

Come home and cry on your pillow (come home and cry on your pillow)

I got a shoulder you can lean

Take it all I’d give you me (I’d give you me)

Cuz I really wanna be much more than your pillow (pillow…)

More than a best friend (best friend)

I think it’s evident (evident)

That I wanna be more than your pillow ‘girl’

I understand if you’re scared

Cuz baby I’m scared too

But if you take a look inside your heart then you know it’s true

There ain’t no way he’ll ever love you like I do

So tell me what’s the use on being with someone else (someone else)

Tell me why do you do this to yourself

You can do better than that

You’re so much better than that

Said I just wanna make you happy cuz this…

He’s tearing you apart

The heartbreak don’t stop (tearing you…apart)

Come home and cry on your pillow

Right here to catch you when you fall (catch you when you fall)

You know I’m the one you call

Come home and cry on your pillow (home and cry on your pillow!)

I got a shoulder you can lean (you can lean…ohh)

Take it all I’ll give you me

Cuz I really wanna be much more than your pillow (said I really wanna be much more)

More than a best friend (best friend)I think it’s evident

That I wanna be more than your pillow girl (that I wanna be that I wanna be)(WoooOoOoh)

I wanna be (I wanna)

I wanna be

I wanna be more

I wanna be,

I wanna be(WoooOoOh)

I wannaI wanna be (I wanna),

I wanna be

I wanna be more than your pillow girl.....

tis songs is special songs...

i really mean all the words in tis songs...

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?

Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto

Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni

Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou?

Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi

Afuredasu kotoba, wakatteta no ni (mou todokanai)

Hajimete deatta, sono hi kara

Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shitan da

Amari ni shizen ni tokende shimatta futari

Doko e iku no ni mo issho de

Kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de

Bokura wa futari otona ni natte kita

Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?

Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto

Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni (mou kanawanai)

Tokubetsu na imi wo motsu kyou wo

Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo

Kirei na sugata de kami sama ni chikatteru, kimi wo

Boku ja nai hito no tonari de

Shukufuku sareteru sugata wo

Boku wa dou yatte miokureba ii no darou?

Mou doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?

Ano koro mo, bokura no koto, mou moderenai (kangaeta) modorenai (kangaeta)

Doushite kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou?

Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto

Boku no yoko ni, iru hazu datta (sono mama nii)

Sore demo kimi ga boku no soba nara to itte mo

Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto

Tada negatteru

Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikutemo (setsunakutemo)

translation why did i end up fallimg in love with you

why?

did i end up falling for you?

no matter how much time has passed

i still thought

you were right here

but you've already chosen a different path

why?

couldn't I call out to you at all?

every day and night growing emotions

and words overflow

but i realized that

they'd never reach you again

since that day I first met you

i felt like I already knew you

You and I melded into each other so smoothly

it was natural for me

to be where you were

the two of us grew up together

but you've already chosen the different path

why?

did I end falling for you?

no matter how much time has passed

i still thought

you were right here

the special meaning held by this day

today you stood with a happy expression

you looked beautiful while praying to God

but I wasn't the one next to you

and the image of you receiving the blessings

how could I let it go?

so why?

did I end up falling for you?

how we were before?

we can't return to it anymore(I've thought it through)

why?

didn't I hold on to your hand?

no matter how much time has passed

you should've always

been by my side

never changing

but still

even if I'm nowhere near you anymore

i'm praying that you

may be happy for eternity

no matter how much that would make me lonely

no matter how lonely

reading the lyric every single words makes me a little bit touched by it..

i can't imagine if i've to let the person that love walked away from my love

my life empty now without you...