kronologi cintaku

Last Saturday daftar diri kat UiTM Kampus Kota Samarahan. Roomate ku, Y, S and V. Minggu ni memang full cuma hari nie free sikit. Malam tadi 1.22am dah kena bangun and mendengar PM2 marah kami till 4am. Dahlah malam tue ku habis mesages dengan J dalm pukul 1 lebih...Memang tak tidur lah aku malam tue. Yes, next week J masuk sini dapat PRA Sains. Bestnya.

(05 July 07)

J dah pun masuk semalam. Dia called ku and tanya kat mana suis kipas. Lama gak dia called. Dalam 3minit lebih. Then dia nak jumpa ku before kitaorang start exam. Time tue exam untuk tentukan class for Bel 120 kalau tak silap. Bergaya betul. Dengan cermin mata. Dia nampak cute, handsome, cool, elegan...semualah. Terpikat aku. Paling teruk, time tue dia ada mengadu yang roomate dia ‘lembut’. Ngeri betul dia.

(07 July 07, our 1st year anniversary)

Petang habis class, ku ajak J pergi library coz nak buat PTPTN. Tapi malangnya library tutup. Then kitaorang ‘dating’ kat kantin till 5.30pm lebih. Sampai ku dekat bilik, roomate ku semua sakat ku. Diaorang tanya puas tak aku dating. Macam-macam lagilah.

(09 July 07)

Tengah hari Dear @ J ada called. Mengada-ngada pula panggil ku Honey. Ku nak juga panggil dia Dear tapi takut adik ku dengar. Dia siap kata “Miss you Honey. Love you Honey. Dear want to kiss Honey.” Ku pun balas, “Love you too, Dear. Miss you too, Dear.” Tapi kiss tue ku tak jawablah.

(02 September 07)

First-first ingat nak dinner kat kantin dengan Dear last night tapi parent ku datang hantar barang. So lunch date kat kantin the next day la. Hari tu kitaorang guna baju yang temanya coklat keputihan. Tapi nang bestlah. Kamekorang plan this Thursday jumpa g. Tengoklah.

(09 September 07)

This is messages from Dear.
- Dear pun pening coz tak dapat lihat Honey...
- Honey...Dear miss Honey...can’t wait for tomorrow...
- Honey...you’re not my friend, not my girlfriend, but Honey are everything for Dear...love Honey very much can’t describe with a word how much Dear love Honey...
- Dear pun miss Honey, very miss Honey
- Honey, Dear ngantuk, can Dear sleep with Honey?
- That only picture, Dear want the real Honey

(10 September 07)

Petang dalam pukul 5 lebih, Dear called. First-first dia message tanya ku ada clazz tak. Ku cakap ku baru habis class. Lepas tu dia called. Adalah dalam 5minit lebih. Malam dia called lagi. Time tu aku tengah dinner. Tapi sekejap je dia called.

(11 September 07)

Dear tiba-tiba message “Honey...do you mind if one day, you reall become my Honey” “Just want to ask, until now semua girl yang Dear suka tak suka pada Dear, maybe Dear should couple with Honey... Semalam Dear pun message “Good night Honey, Dear want to hug Honey in Dear’s dream”. “It will, coz Dear miss Honey...”

(14 September 07)

Messages from Dear (26 September 07) Time tu kitaorang ada gaduh sikit..
- I’ve a lot of problem...But, when I’m with u, I was the happiest person, I love u Honey, sorry. I broke my promise...las nite I said I’ll neer send tis word to u.
- I can’t stand it anymore...that word make us closer to each other...Honey...Dear love Honey very much
- Honey...I’m sorry, okay...
- Love Honey too..

Another message from Dear. (Translation)
- Namanya Elizaberth, I call her Panda, burung, Honey and I Love her, Janet called her Inik Andan..org lain called her Berth
- Elizaberth I Miss You...why you didn’t message me? Yes, I’m busy all the time but I want to receive your message, read it then reply it...why you didn’t message me?..
- She know because I Love her...
- I don’t care..I Miss you...I love you...I want to see you...
- About you la...I’m happy eventhough it is only dream but I see you and talk to you...

More messages from Dear
- That’s why honey must be happy..don’t sad la..okay...dear don’t want honey to sad
- What happen? Don’t like that...don’t leave me....alone without honey here...dear need honey
- Dear didn’t ask Honey to be someone else, just be my Honey, be my Elizaberth, be my Panda, be my frenz, be my gurlfren that always happy..

(Unknown date)

From Dear (Again unknown date coz I forgot to write it...) (Translation)
- In you heart...tak dapat keluar, Honey close Honey’s Heart macam mana nak keluar...dear nak mandi ni, cepatlah open you heart...
- Good night....I’m chatting wit another Jes instead of me rite now...now i know...Honey...i’ll try my very besy not to hurt your feeling.
- Honey..I’m sorry because I’m disturbing Honey, I want to thanks Honey because Honey always by my side when I’m down, when I’m sad... I REALLY LOVE YOU HONEY...

Somemore....
- Dear want to hug Honey but can’t, Dear want to kiss Honey but can’t, Dear hope Honey appear in Dear’s dream tonight...
- Okay...tak apa, wait for another day to see Honey wouldn’t kill me...just a bit rindu to see Honey.
- Since the day I started to miss Honey...
- Dear didn’t study...Dear just tell what in Dear’s heart...
- But I wouldn’t kongkong Honey...because Dear also don’t want Honey kongkong Dear...
- Honey...if that person is me, I wouldn’t
- K..Honey, sometime Dear thinking bout Honey, Dear really love Honey, hope we can stay together...

More and more...
- Honey...I’m sorry for what I’ve done, what I’ve said...sorry if I ever hurt you, I still and always love you...
- Honey In my heart...
- Dear also love Honey
- Honey too always support me...
- No matter for long we didn’t see each other that’s not important...important is we already meet each other again...
- (Time aku cakap nak tukar handphone, I told “wait till Dear change for Honey..”)
- Wait till Honey really become my Honey...but Honey always said don’t want if Dear asked
- Honey I Love You...
- No matter what happen I will always loves you...

Messages from Dear (after ku agak lama tak message Dear; 21 November 07)
- What happen to you? Why you didn’t msg me?...If you don’t want to be my friend, just tell me...so I don’t have to wait everyday for you msg..
From me
- Dun say like dat my Dear. Of course Honey want to be ur frend and if possible I want to be ur special. I just not feeling well tis few days. Wat makes u think like dat?
Dear
- Nothing...I want to ask you something? Do you like me..?
Me
- As what? As friend? As brother? As boyfriend? As lover? How about you?
Dear
- As boyfriend..if you do...please don’t...I know I’m too selfish and I can’t control others feeling..
Me
- How about if I say yes? Why? Do you love me too? I admit I do love you as boyfriend. How about u?do u love me? From d bottom of ur heart
Dear
- No...
Me
- Hmm...who say that u r selfish? For me u r not dat kind of man..
Dear
- Thank you..for everything...your birthday will coming soon but I still don’t know what t give you.
Me
- Really? It’s ok..I don’t really need any present. Enough for me if I get birthday wish from d person dat I loved
Dear
- But I want to give you...and I will give you...
Me
- Well, up to you and I wont force you. You are not selfish. For me u r special coz u always by my side and dat was a special present for me.
Dear
- You also always by my side...

One of the message that I love
I will send black rose, I want to be Honey’s enemy so Honey will never forget me, I’ll send pink rose and yellow, I want to be your special fren, orange and white rose, I want to be ur best wishes and live a peaceful life with you, I’L ALSO WILL LOVE YOU, THAT WHY I’LL SEND RED ROSE

Message from Dear (13 December 07)(Translation)
- Ingatkan kamu yang kahwin, nasiblah cousin kamu yang berkahwin...masih ada peluanglah aku macam ni...
Message from me
- Kenapa pula bimbang kalau aku yang berkahwin? Kalau aku kahwin pun bukannya kacau hidup kamu. Kalau saya kahwin pun., saya nak kamu jadi pengapit saya.
Message from Dear
- Taknak...saya nak jadi orang yang duduk di sebelah kamu...hahaha...
Message from Dear (14 December 07)
- Suka hati la mahu tidur awal...aku tidur dengan kamu boleh tak..?
Message from me.
- Tunggu sampai kamu jadi kekasih ku kalau kamu mahu tidur denganku.
Message from Dear
- Kalau aku kahwin pun, aku nak berkahwin dengan kamu.
Message from me
- Kalau tak ada orang yang suka aku, kamu sajalah yang kahwin dengan aku.
Message from Dear
- Aku sayangggg kamu Panda...tak tahu macam mana nak kata, i wish we always can be friend...good morning...

(17 December 07)

Those are my real story...Some of the text I translate it...I admit I still thinking about him especially when I bump with him in UiTM. Now, he is happy with his girlfriend which is his own coursemate and classmate I guess. One of my friend ask me why don't you befriend with him? I asked her back, "Can't you stay with someone that you love happy with his beloved one?" And my friend said "No" so it is what I feel too..